Family Christmas party

Well it is off to Family Christmas party.  The daughter have planned it and we are going bowling.  Oh I mean they are going bowling I will sit quietly and smile at all the frolic that goes on.  I got out today did a little grocery shopping and then home again for a nap.  I have done a little bit today but still feeling a bit shaky and just not up to par.  I will put pictures on of the party tomorrow.  Thanks everyone that commented on my last post.  I love hearing from people and seeing what they are up to.  May the saints be with all of you. 

Carla

Merry Christmas

Well Merry Christmas to all and a Happy New Year.  Our news has been full of the impeachment of Donald Trump our president.  I have very mixed emotions about it. I do believe it was a witch hunt and now they have proved they can do it they will back down.  This is going to be a very crazy New Year,   I have been very sick and wound up in the hospital for 3 days.  Just barely getting a little strength back so I can do a little something. 
The new year is going to be full of getting healthy.  I do not want to get this sick again ever. 
Christmas has been cancelled for me this year.  I told my family your present this year is you still have me.  The weather is crazy and everyone is hoping for a white Christmas.  My hubby has been wonderful he was really worried that he was going to lose me.  I am learning to take easy and let things stack up which for me is quite a feat.  I am a little OCD.  I hope and pray that all of you keep healthy and enjoy the holidays. 

Carla

Well it is 4 o-clock in in the morning and I cannot sleep.  So here I am.  My mind is a whirl of things I need to get done and ideas for the grandchildren's Christmas and Kids.  Being retired makes it hard to do much but I do want to do something. I was thinking of making a Christmas breakfast basket for them with all the makings of pancakes and some juice and bacon.  I will have to research the bacon or deliver it on Christmas Eve.  I am feeling so blessed today - night whatever time it is.  I have finished my table runner and my dear hubby found my snowman quilt.  

My snowman quilt was made last year and I put it away and could not remember where.  I had searched the house top to bottom and just gave up.  But not dear hubby he is persistent when it comes to finding treasure and he found it for me.  I love that man.  

We do not have any snow just in the mountains but I am quite sure we will have a white Christmas.  We attended the great grand children's dance recital and they did so good.  We are so blessed.  I think back in my mother's days when she was raising me and my sister all by herself and I realize that I could have done so much more to help her.  Money was tight and she worked so have to give us everything she could.  Well my tea is almost gone to I had better sign off.  I hope everyone had a good sleep. 

Today Lord I am feeling so afraid for this world.  As I go out society and see the commercialism and the worldly around me I do not know how we can survive.  I read my scriptures and see how they are coming to truth.  As senior citizens the world is leaving us behind and also the poor.  I hear everyday that another homeless has died of the cold.  Where is the humanity in people.  You know Lord I may not be right but instead of paying my tithes I would rather help some poor person just get through another day.  Please help those homeless Lord.  I know a lot of them have mental problems but many of them have addiction problems.  I pray that they can find peace in their lives and be strong enough to overcome.  Amen

Today Lord is December 1st.  It is my second oldest Grandson's birthday.  I remember when my daughter told me she was pregnant.  I was so sad cause I had just been through the same thing with my oldest daughter.  Raised Mormon I thought of this as awful and a transgression but now as I look back I realize what a blessing it was.  My two oldest grandsons have been such a blessing to me.  Yes they had struggled with issues that even though they had young mothers, they had wonderful mothers.  My daughters knew they had to grow up fast and be responsible.  Issues come no matter what when children are born out of wedlock but they are strong people and I am so proud of them.  I realize that my religion made me think about the world in a judgemental way.  Life is what it is.  It is choices and we all make them good or bad.  But we cannot judge because no one walked in those people shoes then or now.  When I look at people now that may have made the bad choices I do not judge I only pray for them that their lives can turn around and they can find some happiness while they are here on earth.  And sometimes their choices were not the result of all of their life choices but of the people who came before and that I think is the saddest of all.  It takes a very strong person to turn their lives around and undo what someone else has done to them.  Thank you Lord for letting me see this side of life.  This world is amazing!  Yes it is getting difficult and I feel sorry and pray for all those who their lives are not really their choice but the choice of someone else that has resulted in their situation.  I will continue to pray for them Lord.  Amen. 

It has been a very very busy few months.  Birthdays, holidays and gardening and getting ready for winter.  I listened to a podcast the other day and it hit the nail on the head.  It reminded me of why I have changed these last few months.  I have become more alone and trying to find my way.  It made me realize that the reason I always said yes to people was to gain acceptance.  I realize now that I don;t need anyone's acceptance but Gods.  I am working on just being in the present and letting go of all the negative people and things in my life.  I have the right to say no.  I have the right to be happy.  I have the right to just stay in my home and be present.  I do not need to please anyone but myself and God.  I love this new me.  I am a work in progress and my only regret is that I did not realize it sooner. 

Today I kept thinkng are we going to be with our families after we die?  The Lord promises we are.  So I guess the question is do we have the faith to work as hard as we can so we can be with them.  

I Also went to  viewing  and there in a frame was a saying It was like a message to me.  It said:

I would rather live my life believing in God and when I die to find there was not one than to live my life not believing in God and have a god when I died.  It puts like in a different persepective.

When thoughts come into my head I know they are help from above.  I Also know that cercumstances that come up are also from God.  I am so glad and thankful that I have God in my life, 
Have a great weekend everyone.