It has been a very very busy few months.  Birthdays, holidays and gardening and getting ready for winter.  I listened to a podcast the other day and it hit the nail on the head.  It reminded me of why I have changed these last few months.  I have become more alone and trying to find my way.  It made me realize that the reason I always said yes to people was to gain acceptance.  I realize now that I don;t need anyone's acceptance but Gods.  I am working on just being in the present and letting go of all the negative people and things in my life.  I have the right to say no.  I have the right to be happy.  I have the right to just stay in my home and be present.  I do not need to please anyone but myself and God.  I love this new me.  I am a work in progress and my only regret is that I did not realize it sooner.