Today Lord is December 1st.  It is my second oldest Grandson's birthday.  I remember when my daughter told me she was pregnant.  I was so sad cause I had just been through the same thing with my oldest daughter.  Raised Mormon I thought of this as awful and a transgression but now as I look back I realize what a blessing it was.  My two oldest grandsons have been such a blessing to me.  Yes they had struggled with issues that even though they had young mothers, they had wonderful mothers.  My daughters knew they had to grow up fast and be responsible.  Issues come no matter what when children are born out of wedlock but they are strong people and I am so proud of them.  I realize that my religion made me think about the world in a judgemental way.  Life is what it is.  It is choices and we all make them good or bad.  But we cannot judge because no one walked in those people shoes then or now.  When I look at people now that may have made the bad choices I do not judge I only pray for them that their lives can turn around and they can find some happiness while they are here on earth.  And sometimes their choices were not the result of all of their life choices but of the people who came before and that I think is the saddest of all.  It takes a very strong person to turn their lives around and undo what someone else has done to them.  Thank you Lord for letting me see this side of life.  This world is amazing!  Yes it is getting difficult and I feel sorry and pray for all those who their lives are not really their choice but the choice of someone else that has resulted in their situation.  I will continue to pray for them Lord.  Amen. 

It has been a very very busy few months.  Birthdays, holidays and gardening and getting ready for winter.  I listened to a podcast the other day and it hit the nail on the head.  It reminded me of why I have changed these last few months.  I have become more alone and trying to find my way.  It made me realize that the reason I always said yes to people was to gain acceptance.  I realize now that I don;t need anyone's acceptance but Gods.  I am working on just being in the present and letting go of all the negative people and things in my life.  I have the right to say no.  I have the right to be happy.  I have the right to just stay in my home and be present.  I do not need to please anyone but myself and God.  I love this new me.  I am a work in progress and my only regret is that I did not realize it sooner. 

Today I kept thinkng are we going to be with our families after we die?  The Lord promises we are.  So I guess the question is do we have the faith to work as hard as we can so we can be with them.  

I Also went to  viewing  and there in a frame was a saying It was like a message to me.  It said:

I would rather live my life believing in God and when I die to find there was not one than to live my life not believing in God and have a god when I died.  It puts like in a different persepective.

When thoughts come into my head I know they are help from above.  I Also know that cercumstances that come up are also from God.  I am so glad and thankful that I have God in my life, 
Have a great weekend everyone.

Today I thank you Lord for the warm feelings of you by my side yesterday.  There are days when I just need to know and feel you there.  I pray for those who do not have a safe haven to keep them warm this winter.  I pray for those who are suffering from cancer and other illnesses.  
I am sending my niece a quilt today.  Her mother my sister-in-law passed away this year.  We miss her so much.  She was such a fun loving person and so active.  I miss her phone calls and her pictures on facebook.  The quilt I am sending is done in her favorite color and I really wanted to keep it however deep inside I know my niece will cherish it.  My niece has MS and just keep going.

I have another one just about done and that one I will keep for me.  

Going to be a busy day for me today but I thank the Lord for helping me get everything done.  

Blessings to all of you out there in blog land. 

Today is a good day.  It is a busy day but a good busy day.  I have been doing some sewing and I am almost done with a quilt I am making for my oldest daughter.  

 These are my lilies from this year.  Thank you Lord they make me happy.

Daughters quilt all I need is two more boarders and it will be ready to quilt.  

This is the quilt I did for my granddaughter that just got married.  

I will probably do another in this pattern I really liked how it turned out. 

Well it is lunchtime and I am going to go fix Mr a sandwish.  

Have a good day everyone.  Thank you Lord for this day.  

I have been absent for quite a while.  Had the stomach flue and that really put me down for about two weeks.  My mind has been a whirl lately.  Last week I was really doing great but this week not so much.  I have discovered more arthritis growth on my left side of my foot and it is making it really hard to wear certain shoes.  I have been trying to just spend a couple of hours cleaning then doing something fun for the day.  Lately everything I cook is not good enough for Mr.  We have been married almost 50 years and why is he complaining now?  I have been working on a fun project which I will put pictures of later.  The good Lord has blessed me so much lately and I am feeling guilty for being such a hum bug.  We lost a great person last week.  Our cousin Fred went to meet God.  He was so wonderful and will be so greatly missed.  

The older we get the harder it is to lose people we love.  I pray everyone has a good week and I am going to try to perk up and enjoy the rest of the week.  

I have decided to change my blog.  If no one follows I do not care.  I have decided to rename my blog "Letters to God"

I very often almost everynight lay in bed and talk to God about my day, things I have observed, feelings, and thank him for all he does for me.  I decided to make a ledger of these talks so I can recall them and remember all the wonderful things that he has had a hand in.  

I had a dream last night and a dear friend of mine who has passed visited me in my dream.  Now when people visit me it is in a dream and we are usually just doing something but I feel them there.  Well last night she and I were cleaning.  We were working together (as we often did) but I was on one shift and she was on another.  It left me with such a good feeling to awake and realize that it was a visit from her and she was reminding me that we worked so well together.  She passed early from Lukemia and I often think of her sweet talented soul.  I know she is playing piano in heaven for the Lord.  

Thank you Lord for that dream and letting her visit.  You do so much for me and I am so very grateful.